Today, I’m interrupting the sensory processing series to do something a little different. Okay, a lot different. I had originally planned to make a video blog about sensory diet to run today. What happened instead was a video about why talking is hard.
About 45 minutes into a very frustrating attempt at speaking on video, I gave up. I was ready to walk away from the process when The Scientist asked me to describe what I was feeling. Mostly I was feeling frustrated and angry with myself, but I eventually got past that and managed to talk a little about why I have so much difficulty speaking in this type of situation.
The short answer: The thinking and speaking parts of my brain seem to compete for resources, making it harder for me to organize my thoughts when I speak versus when I write. When I see how much I repeat myself in this video, I cringe, because if I were writing these thoughts out, I would use 1/3 as many words and probably be able to convey twice as much content.
If nothing else, I think you might find the contrast between my written communication and spoken communication interesting.
(Both videos are close captioned.)
If you’re still with me, there is another video clip that followed the one above. The Scientist ignored my declaration that I wouldn’t be videoblogging and asked me if I could describe the difference between what happens in my head when I write versus when I speak. The result was some thoughts about the strong disconnect between who I am in my head and who I am “out loud.”
I’m not sure how truly illuminating either of these videos is in terms of actual content. In fact, I’d be interested to know what your impressions are as a viewer, especially of my ability to convey whatever you think it is I’m trying to convey.
So that was my grand adventure in video blogging. I have a few more clips that might be usable–including one on regulation that, if nothing else, I’ll write about. I’m not sure how much more of me you’ll be seeing on video though. Talking is hard.
Alex at Married, With Aspergers has a related post on thought styles that I recommend reading if you found these videos interesting: Thought Transference